So I guess we aren't talking. Can you at least have the decency to tell me you're not gonna talk to me? I've made so many attempts to befriend you non-anonymously and none of them have panned out. I'm involuntarily friendless and have been for at least a year or more. Please just say I'm unwanted. The not knowing is eating away at me.
TW: suicide, emotional abuse, harassment
Okay, anon. I know who you are now. I just got off from work to get this message and two others within the past 24 hours.
First off, I told you that I work nights from 4pm-2am. This means I do not have my phone or a computer during that time. Four-five days a week. When I get off from working in a hot warehouse for ten hours, I am tired. I am hungry. I need sleep. I sleep until around noon or later and then have to start getting ready to do all of that all over again. During the week, I am hard to reach, because of this. I feel like I should not need to explain this to a stranger - and justify my inactivity, but I have been so triggered from our past conversations, that I guess I have to.
Now that that is aside, I need to tell you that I DID block you in the past because you were harassing me. That is why I have not been getting your messages. Before I blocked you, I told you that I was going through a hard time and felt that I was not stable enough to help you. Regardless, I gave you resources and suggestions on who to contact about your issue. I asked you to stop contacting me. You did not. If I did not respond to your messages fast enough, you would contact different blogs of mine. In one day, I received messages from you at three different blogs AND my personal e-mail.
You guilted me for not helping you. You made me feel like an asshole. You threatened suicide. I asked you to please stop contacting me again, and again offered helplines. I was suicidal at the time. I repeatedly told you this, and that I could not help you how you wanted me to.
Please. I love helping people, but you did not respect my wishes or my personal space. I am so triggered from these past experiences with you that I am shaking and near tears right now. I am sorry, but I cannot deal with this. What you are doing is emotional abuse.
Please, for the last time, stop contacting me. I do not even want an apology.
TW: suicide, emotional abuse, harassment^